Changing friends to CHANGE?!!

In the past, in my school years, I used to be friends with certain type of people only; those mostly people called us nerd, freak or what so ever. I comfortable to be with them and; for me I don’t like those people who knew only to socialized, to have fun and not serious towards their study. What a simple and ancient mind I have back then. Because of my primitive thinking, my school days past just like that without any memories to be hold. I am somewhat envy of my sister, looking at how she really enjoys her school life to the fullest.

I am writing here not to blame my friends, but instead to blame my way of thinking back then. When I started my life in college, I was forced to mix with those groups of people that I hate the most. As time pass by, I comes to realize their way of thinking. I understand them, and I myself, become one like them. Well, not really exactly like them. I am still me, but I did adapt something new as changes in my life. I changes from a dull, quite and loner type of person into a brighter and easy to get along girl. I am grateful to my friends for changing and making the “me” right now.

But tonight, once again, I thought of changing myself into a better person; to be precise, in becoming a better muslimah. Do I need to sacrifice my current friendship as a ticket to be a new me? I kept thinking on that. Or can I really change without changing my friends? Regardless of knowing that..in order to change, it must come from your inner desire and determination, I cannot do it alone. I need an environment which is supportive enough to do so. Sounds like an excuses huh..well never mind if you think so. This is my story! But one thing for sure I don’t want to give up both. I will do my best to hold onto my friendship and my dream. Someday I am sure I will get them. BE GREEDY<<cannot always apply this one though, BE POSITIVE, BE OPTIMIST.